“ANGELVERSARY”

Me & Him on the porch with coffee. My last Sunday at age 62 and also approaching Carol’s 3rd “Angelversary”. As I walked this morning, my emotions took over and I wanted to shake my fist, railing at Him for taking her from us so young.

“Don’t you know we had plans to grow old together like Mom and Aunt Rae???? We talked about it all the time…watching them and saying, “There we are, 20 years from now.” And then we’d laugh.

After I fought the sobbing and heartache down, I realized she’s in the perfect place, with Him and family gone before her, welcoming those after her. I raised my eyes to the beautiful, azure sky and thanked Him…like the toddler who had a temper tantrum and of course, I was forgiven. That’s how He rolls. I didn’t even have to sit in time out.

This last week of 62-itis, I’ll continue pursuing good health. I’m stronger, leaner and healthier than last birthday. I’m removing sugar, flour, additives and chemicals from my daily diet, enjoying the food I prepare and using it for fuel, instead of a drug to soothe my grief. I’m writing more  and will no longer beat on doors not opening and instead will look for the open ones…doors and windows of opportunity.

This week, is the first week of the rest of my life and I’m planning on honoring my mother and sister by experiencing the things they couldn’t. I’ll celebrate them both as well as myself.

They’d be so proud.

Happy Sunday!

Originally written on Sunday, February 8, 2015